I feel the need to tell this to someone so here it goes: My whole life I've been scared of letting people in. Now at the age of twenty that's my biggest regret. I am alone and my loneliness is starting to eat away at me. I always tell people that as long as you have one person in this world, that completely gets and loves you for who you are, then you're the luckiest person in the world. I truly believe that. I desperately want someone to see past my facade of strength and independence and have them realize that I want to find love just like everybody else. I came close to love in my freshman year of college. He broke down my walls and I shared things with him that I never have shared with anybody. When he asked me what I wanted out of our relationship I lied and told him I wanted nothing serious. I just couldn't bring myself to tell him the truth. A few weeks later he began dating another girl. I was heartbroken. Him and his girlfriend eventually broke up. When that happened we reconnected, but I never told him how I felt. I never told him that I wanted to be with him, that I loved him. I transfered schools after freshman year and the day I was leaving I had the opportunity to, but I didn't cease it. We kissed goodbye and I never saw him. Now I am twenty and I am alone. I never had a boyfriend and I use random hookups as a substitute for love. Don't end up like me. If you have strong feelings for someone, tell them. It is better than wondering what if.

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