Once upon a time, I fell in love with someone I never really thought I would fall for.
Talking to her every night became a part of my daily routine, it doesn’t matter if I’m tired or not, busy or not, the deal was I have to talk to her until the clock turns 10 pm, it’s usually her bedtime.
She never was the most beautiful girl I ever saw back then, in class, we are the ones who always fight, yell, play at each other and everytime we would talk, it would always be about her boyfriend and how much of a douchebag he is, how never put on any effort for her, and in time, he broke her heart. And me, being the guy she always talk with, became her crying shoulder, helped her through the times she really needs someone. Back then, it was “just being a good friend” sort of thing, but time changes everything, feelings grew uncontrollably.
April 1 of 2010, we pranked a classmate that we are couple already, a simple joke that grew into something else. I started to realize that I already love her, that I can’t go on a day without talking to her, that she already is the most beautiful girl I see. I told her about my feelings and she responded positively, we started dating, we were on fire for the next 2 weeks, inseparable.
1 month into the relationship, I found out that she was cheating on me with her ex, I’ve never cried so much in my entire life. But you know what, I saw the sincerity of her apology, I, in turn, accepted it and gave her another chance.
And then one day. We had a big fight. I don’t understand what was happening, but we were both angry and yelling. I said things I regret in the past and present.. But this fight, was my biggest regret. She was crying now, and said the words that broke my heart, “I don’t want this anymore” Damn. It hurt so much.
I tried everything to get her back, but everything just backfired ..She said she doesn’t want a relationship right now, but it hurts me when I see her smiling and talking about this other guy who likes her. It breaks my heart, and I’ve never felt so helpless in my entire life, watching the love of your life replacing you. She said we could be friends and nothing more, but because I’m still emotionally attached, I can’t fathom seeing and hearing about this other guy.
I don’t know what hurts more; Watching the love of your life love someone else OR Loving her and not knowing what is happening to her..
I still love her…that’s my point….and if ever she decides to come back, I would love her right….