lol I guess I’ll submit a part 2 since people told me to write the parts I skipped. :)
Sooo he told me him and his girl didn’t have that kind of passion and in my head I was like ‘Well why don’t u just end it then..’ but I just smiled and squeezed his hand a little tighter. I went home and knew I was going to feel guilty but before I went to guilty mode I sat in my room feeling extremely happy for the longest time and soaked it all in. Then slowly I let reality hit me; Summer is coming to an end. He’s 1 grade above me and I was going into high school as a freshman. I’d be forced to see him and his girlfriend at school. together. I was in way to deep to back out now. After that day we hung out, kissed, did stuff normal couples would do. and pretty soon I got more and more angry. I can’t sit around and be the other girl anymore. He needs to either let me go or let her go. He can’t have both. First day of High School started, I saw him at lunch, he came up and talked to me, gave me a hug, the people around us had no idea how much had happened between us and the thought of that is kind of cool. I saw him and his girlfriend walk around the halls sometimes and one day it all snapped in my head. Was he playing me ? I don’t get played. I don’t know how to deal with this. So I woke up one morning and forced myself to move on. We’d talk on the phone every day, but I stopped calling him. When he called me, I gave him short answers and hung up fast. It didn’t last very long, bout a week later after school, I was laying on the floor in my room talking to my best friend and venting to her about how I can’t get over him, and just she was telling me to be strong and act like I don’t care, Guess who’s knocking on my door like a creeper ? Yup. There he was, randomly showing up without even giving me a heads up. I freaked out, told her I had to hang up, and answered the door. He told me to go to the park with him down the street and talk. It was kind of awkward at first then he asked why I haven’t been calling him, and I told him it wasn’t okay with me anymore to wait around for nothing. Summer’s over and he still hasn’t made a decision yet and I’m not taking it anymore. He told me that he thought I’d only like him during summer and when high school started all the other guys will be hitting on me and I’d forget about him. A brief silence gone by as he grabbed me in and hugged me and told me he’s never gonna see me as a friend. I didn’t know if anything got solved during that conversation but whatever it was, it wasn’t good. For the next few days I went to school, acted normal, flirted with guys, and looked for potential distractions. I met a cute skater boy from my gym class who asked me to hang out one Friday night. He was pretty cute and I needed to get my mind off of him so I thought, why not. He was a fun distraction for a while, and a girl who stole my boyfriend in middle school was about to date him so I thought, why not kill 2 birds with one stone. He asked me out within the next 2 weeks and while I got the victory I wanted with the girl, My mind was no way near off of him. Pretty soon he found out I got a boyfriend and called me to make sure if it was true, I said yes and he laughed. There was some neighborhood party going on that week and I couldn’t help but want to see him, so I invited him to come. There was a moon walk and we were inside sitting, talking. He gave me a kiss on the cheek before we were leaving and I pushed him off, the chemistry came back again. and I knew it wasn’t fair to the guy I was dating, so I broke it off within the next 2 weeks and since no strong feelings had formed yet, we became good friends instead. I decided it was selfish of me to toy with other guys feelings just to get over him. I just chilled for a while. Then around September, a cute Asian boy (Kevin) started talking to me. I’m not usually into Asians so I didn’t think anything of it. But after a while the more I talked to Kevin, the more I forgot about him. Which was really nice. Pretty soon I started having feelings for Kevin, and I stopped calling him and we basically cut off all communications and I cut him out of my life, or so I thought.
I really liked Kevin, he was really sweet and funny to me and I enjoyed having a guy who I know has me as they’re complete and undivided attention. On October 10th, Kevin asked me out and I was really happy because this time I know I’m saying yes because I deep down like Kevin. I said yes not for him, but for myself. The day Kevin asked me out, he told me to meet him at the tennis courts after school, which at the time was where everyone would hang out at. As I was walking into the tennis courts my friend ran up to me and told me *He* was in there. Then I saw on the corner of my eyes Kevin walking up to me too. I freaked out and ran in the courts and put all of my attention on Kevin even though inside I wanted to talk to him really bad. How was he doing ? Did he miss me ? Had he forgotten all about me already ? but I pushed all that aside and me and Kevin hugged. Then as me and kevin hung out we started to play fight, I pushed him and as he pushed me back I accidently fell backwards and guess who I just happened to land on ? Yup. It was the most awkwardest thing ever as I said sorry and walked away. A few minutes later Kevin leaned in to kiss me and just as we were about to kiss, Guess who decides to take off their t-shirt and throws it at my face !? It was pretty embarrassing but deep inside I felt pretty smug. I knew I pissed him off and that made me feel victorious. I looked at him stunned as he apologized and said it was an accident. Then just as I was about to leave Kevin asked me out, I was honestly really happy. Me and Kevin were good.. for a while. Till late December to be exact. My birthday is on the last day of the year, New Years Eve, so it’s not rocket science to remember it, but for some reason at midnight when everyone told me happy birthday, Kevin didn’t. At first I didn’t mind but then an hour later, and we were on the phone and he STILL didn’t. I got mad. I even told my friend to tell him happy new years EVE to remind him subcontiously. And still nothing. So I started to pick a random fight on the phone with him and we ended up fighting and he hung up on me. I was extremely pissed. And Boom, it’s like clock work, He aims me a big Happy Birthday and it made me instantly happy. My own boyfriend doesn’t remember to tell me Happy Birthday, but the guy I’ve been trying so hard to forget did ? It’s like the universe was telling me to start talking to him again. He told me he wanted to tell me happy birthday in person and I told him I don’t sneak out anymore. He said it’ll be for a little while and he really wanted to see me on my birthday. I finally agreed and went outside as he gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me happy birthday, then we went to his house . He tried to flirt with me and although I liked it, it made me angry at the same time, not to mention I was paranoid the entire time I was there, soo I told him to take me home and as he dropped me off we were saying our good-byes in the car and he gave me a kiss on the cheek then he told me, ‘That’s fucked up, you’re gonna leave me hanging like that ?’ I told him yes because I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend. He said it’s been like that since summer then I pointed out the fact that I knew how to stay faithful and in summer I was single, now I am not. He asked me why we couldn’t go back to the way it was in summer and I got extremely angry and exploded on him, I started lecturing him about how one day he’s gonna find a girl who he’s gonna wanna give up cheating for because he’s really gonna love her and he said, ‘Why can’t you be that girl ?’ then I told him because I waited my whole summer for him to make me that girl and he didn’t and now it’s too late. and as I was in the middle of lecturing him he kisses me out of nowhere, totally unexpected. I pushed him off, super suprised while he just sat there feeling smug. I yelled at him and told him now I cheated and I needed to tell Kevin now and he told me I didn’t because HE kissed me, I didn’t do anything. Which was true. and I really didn’t wanna tell Kevin. so I just decided to let it slip. I went home, checked my aim, and Kevins aimed me about a million times saying sorry and to please call him back. and after what I just did ? Of course I forgave him.
I was stupid, because after that I put Z back on my top on Myspace and Kevin got suspicious. For my birthday I went to Disney World so I was unable to get on the computer for the next few days while Kevin got really suspicious and tried to dig information. When I got back I told him nothing was going on between me and z and I guess he didn’t believe me so he asked one of my close friends that I had told. I told Kevin something about her I wasn’t suppose to and Kevin used it against me and told her that I tell him everything she tells me so she got upset and spilled the beans on me. Kevin called me up one night and asked if I had a heart, I was confused, then he proceeded to laugh and told me it was over. I was so confused then I started to talk to Kevin’s best friend and dug information out of him and found out who told. After I found out, I told my best friend and she was more upset then I was. She wanted to cuss her out and everything but I told her not to. We just stopped being friends. I can honestly say I was heartbroken over Kevin and I hated myself for going out that night with him. I hated him. I wanted Kevin back, but I knew I messed up and he wasn’t gonna take me back. So for the rest of Freshman year I sulked, talked to boys, tried to like them but I still liked Kevin. Summer came around again and I went to New York the whole summer to stay with my sister and her boyfriend for vacation. One day *He* messaged me on myspace randomly and told me I should call him. I forgot to mention him and his girlfriend were on and off the whole year and they were finally off for good. and I heard. So when he told me to call him the first thought was, ‘Oh now that yall r over u want me ? Fuck you.’ So I told him I was busy and he told me to call him during the night, I told him I stayed up till 4 in the morning every day. He told me to call him at 5 in the morning. I said No. and that’s when he got the hint and said, ‘Ok just kidding then have a fun trip.’ I watched a lot of Asian dramas that summer and I wanted another Asian boyfriend, preferably one who can speak Chinese like me, There was a cute Chinese boy named George who I thought would be a good future boyfriend, so I decided to talk to him and we made plans to hang out when I got back from New York. Around August when I returned, me and George hit it off. He was really sweet, but I didn’t feel immediate sparks like I did with Him. Me and George were good for a while then he became waaay to clingy. and I felt like I was the guy in the relationship and I wore the pants which I didn’t like. So I had to end that around September. As I ended it, I thought to myself maybe I can start talking to Kevin again if he doesn’t hate me anymore. Then one day after school I was in the back of the school on the benches sitting with my friend when *He* drove by. My friend told me but I didn’t see and since he already drove by I was just like whatever. Then 2 seconds later, he made a U-turn, parked in the parking lot, got out of his car, and came up and talked to me and my friend. 10 minutes later my friend left and it was just me and him. By this time it was like talking to a stranger for a while, but I wasn’t mad at him anymore, we sat on the bench for about an hour and a half filling each other in on what we’ve missed and he drove me home. Then we talked outside of my house for about another 30 minutes about random stuff like movies and books. I told him the movie ‘Jennifer’s Body’ was out and I was excited because I love Megan Fox. Then about 2 days later just as I was getting ready to shut my computer off for bed, he aimed me about a paragraph basically asking me out on a date to watch Jennifer’s Body. I agreed. The weekend rolled by and we watched the movie. It sucked. Then afterwards we went to build-a-bear and since it was October we made a Halloween themed bear and he gave it to me. We spent the rest of the weekend together and the Chemistry was kicking in all over again, we did all the things we planned to do when we first started talking and it was fun. After we watched a movie at my house he was on his way out we said bye about 10 times and I told him he needed to leave bc we said bye for too long he said not yet, I asked why and he said, ‘So I can do this’ then he grabs my face and we kissed. It was like meeting an old friend. When I told my best friend about this she yelled at me and told me that he was going to play me again and hurt me and made me realize that what she said is probably true. I called him up and told him I changed my mind and I didn’t want to talk to him anymore, then he sat there for about an hour on the phone talking to me about how he won’t and he knows he messed up but the whole time we didn’t talk he would wake up mad that he blew it with me, yea of course it’s nice to hear but actions speak louder then words. He told me to give him one last chance and that if he blows it then I can never speak to him again and he won’t bother me anymore. I said ok. The next week I was on my way out to the mall when he kept insisting to come over, he made it official by asking me to be his girl. Since we were only ‘talking’ again for about 2 weeks, no one really knew besides my close friends. And they’re were still guys trying to get with me since me and George broke up not that long ago. Then that Monday, we went to class and walked the hallways with his arms around me. Although I was looking straight ahead, I could see by people that walked past us take double glances or had a surprised look on they’re face. Then when people asked me about it, some of them said ‘WOWW FINAALLY ! IT’S ABOUT TIME !’ Others said, ‘Let’s see how long that’ll last. Make sure he doesn’t hurt you.’ and, ‘Wow yall are like complete opposites and yall are definitely not relationship types.’ Well like I said in the last post, pretty soon we proved everyone wrong.
And to everyone that read both of these posts, I know I didn’t say his name during the story but that’s not intentional, I just started out not introducing his name and when I realized it in the middle of the story I thought it’d be weird if I randomly said his name so I just kept it as *Him* haha. But his name is Zivojin, since he’s European like I mentioned earlier, but everyone calls him Z. :] hahah.