Security

The idea of a promise of forever, to me, is just a blanket of security. Such a promise secures that this person will never leave you so that you will never have to face the harsh challenge of being without them and moving on. Such a promise is one that I will not make because such a promise is one that would give me false hope, false hope that could be shattered.

But it seems so ideal, though. Not having to worry about him someday disappearing from my life, knowing that he’ll be there through it all, such an idea seems so ideal. Such an idea is thought of without even considering that perhaps someday in the future we would go our separate paths and never reunite again because the future remains unknown. But this idea fixates the future onto what you want it to be, what it ideally would be with today’s given circumstances. But circumstances change, people change,everything changes.

I won’t bank on forever. I will never bank on forever. I’ve seen people count on forever and fall apart. People who have been together for years fall apart. I don’t want to be one of them. I won’t try to prove those who think it won’t last wrong. I don’t even know myself.

But I can only hope for it. I can always hope.

by paulalaa