This is me, and my best friend, my ex boyfriend, the absolute love of my life. We were together for three months and a week when he realized that he wasn’t ready for a serious relationship. And that absolutely broke my heart. We’d spent every minute of the summer together, went on a cruise together in August, and we were genuinely happy. I’d never experienced this before. I’d never been so happy, so content, to just do nothing, as long as I was doing it with him.
It’s been over a month since we broke up. He commutes to college, but he’s so busy that he spends most of his time there, and I’ve only seen him four or five times since we broke up, but we text every day. He is honestly my best friend and I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have him to cry on or talk to when I’m stressed or sick or really upset.
I guess we’re a little bit weird. But he is my first real love, and I’m never gonna lose that. It’s my philosophy that you never stop loving someone. Love never disappears, just like energy. If you “stop” loving someone, it means you never did to begin with. Love changes. I know that, now, ours is friendly, ours is familial, but I can’t help but miss the summer, and all the great times we had. But.
The thing is, this boy made me realize how precious my life is. And that, despite my many problems, I am beautiful, intelligent and amazing. That, despite my depression and ADHD, I scored 2060 on my SATs, aced my AP exams and cannot wait to go to college. He made me realize that all the negative things I’ve always believed about myself were all in my imagination. He told me that, to him, I was perfect. And that was all I needed.
So we no longer snuggle. We don’t kiss. We certainly do not hold hands. But I love him more than anything, and I know that, despite the fact it’s hard sometimes, I will always be there for him, and he will always be there for me.
-Elizabeth
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